Todaiy is a sad and happy day

I feel i like fall apart from him because my father and mother are more strict , also my self disiplin is bad and make them disappointed ! Me also dunno to control myself and find a balance! so when need me to go back my life i use to be i felt a little bit difficult and is hard for me ! The happy thing is i need to change my self because is for my own good , it is hard but it is a MUST ! Haiz , i need responsible to my self !  KAmbateh kambateh